Two months ago today, I had been in Beckley, at a meeting for the Friends of Coal Ladies Auxiliary. I was planning to start a chapter in Nicholas County. Steven was not a fan of my constant volunteer work, because it meant I was home less in the evenings, but he fully supported my desire to get involved with the Friends of Coal and advocate on their behalf. After all, we were a coal family! I left the meeting and called him on my way home. Of course, he was hungry, so I offered to stop and grab a couple sandwiches at Subway. His usual; BMT. I got home just in time to help him pack his lunch bucket and tell him about my day. 20 minutes later he was out the door and as always, I met him there with his bucket and a kiss goodnight. He was in such a good mood that evening and as he galloped through the garage toward his truck, he hollered, "Love you, Cock-Monkey! See ya in the morning." I responded in routine, "Love you. Be careful. Watch for deer."
Little did I know those would be our last words. The last time he'd ever pick on me. The last time I'd ever tell him I loved him... and I was worried about the stupid deer.
He usually left around 9:00. So about this time I would have been picking up the house, doing the dishes, and heading to bed. I fell asleep quickly, but at 3:00a.m. my phone rang. I looked at it and thought, 'that must be a butt-dial' and rolled back over. It rang again. I answered and a dear friend said, "Caitlin, I'm in the garage. I need you to let me in." I ran to the door, swung it open, and immediately asked what happened?. My friend responded simply and calmly, "There's been an accident at the mines. You need to get dressed." Without another word, I went toward the bedroom and dropped to my knees. With my elbows on the bed, I prayed.
"Dear God, Please protect my family. If it is your will, Lord, please send my husband home safe."
It wasn't his will.
My husband was already dead.
On the way to the hospital, my friend explained that her husband had called her and asked her to come pick me up. Steven had been in an accident and likely had a few broken bones. We were to meet them in the Emergency Room. In addition to working together, her husband and Steven were also good friends. They grew up together and being 8 months pregnant, he didn't want me driving alone in the middle of the night.
He was protecting me from what was about to become a harsh and painful reality.
I called the hospital on the way and the ER doctor insisted that he couldn't speak to me over the phone due to current HIPPA laws. At this point I knew that it was far worse than I had been told.
We arrived at the hospital and the doctor took me into a small, quiet room. He motioned toward a chair. I sat. I knew. I wanted to vomit.
"I'm sorry, Mrs. O'Dell. Your husband didn't make it."
My worst nightmare. Every Coal Miner's wife's worst nightmare. He was lieing. He had to be lieing. It wasn't Steven. They got it mixed up. How did a couple broken bones turn into 'he didn't make it'?
I am beyond thankful that my last moments with Steven were happy ones. If I can give one piece of advice to my followers, it would be to never leave the house without saying 'I love you'... even if you follow up with a dirty word. :) Be the bigger person. You never know when your loved ones will leave and never return.
Bless you. Thank you for sharing all of your raw emotions.
ReplyDeleteCaitlin....I pray for u and your family every day....I know it is not easy but god is with u everyday. U r such a strong women....u inspire me everyday. My prayers r with u.
ReplyDeleteYou are an inspiration to me.Your love for God has made me crave a closer relationship with him. I thank you for this. I pray for you and Andrew and ask God to bless you. My son Jake worked with Steven and respected him. I pray things get easier for you. Someday I hope to meet you in person but for now just know your loved. :)
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I am soo sorry ... stay strong and know God has a plan for you and your unborn child! God bless you
ReplyDeleteBeing a coal miners wife also, this rips my heart open. There are so many times my husband goes to work and we are fighting about something stupid. I always try to make sure I say I love you because you just never know. You are in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteMay God wrap his loving arms around you and give you the peace that surpasses all understanding. Love and prayers.
ReplyDeletethis broke my heart as i read but also makes me realize that life is short, enjoy the time and make the best out of it.. God be with you always. you are such a strong woman.. such an inspiration
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness .. i wanted to bawl ;( as a coalminers wife as well... this is my worst fear... as my husband has been hurt working underground but nothing dramatic,I fear this everyday I give him a kiss goodbye..there's day i wanna call & just check just to make sure everything is ok.. you are my inspiration... i don't even know but you give me strength, more than I could ever have had!!!! Keeping you & baby Andrew ib my prayers <3
ReplyDeleteTears.. Like you and Hillary, I too am a coal miner's wife. You have experienced all of our worst fear and yet, with the worst outcome, you have shown and continue to show your unbelievable strength, courage, and unbreakable faith in God. Continued prayers for you and your baby boy. May God richly bless you and comfort you.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard for me to find the words to express how this truly touched me. I am truly sorry for your loss but your strength is something most people can only pray to have under these circumstances. God is a big God and the author of peace and you seem to have read his book. I will pray for you and the baby and I know God will watch over your family as he has done for me on many occasions. God bless you!!!
ReplyDeleteI've been a coal miners wife for 34 years, and my husband loves his job. Coal mining is born and bred in them in these hills of West Virginia. Keep those prayers going ahead of them. As you stated, God's will. Keep your faith, let that little one know his daddy through your love for him. Special prayers for the both of you.
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ReplyDeleteLife can be so tough, and with no reasoning as to why some are chosen for the pain. You have made a wonderful journal through your memories and I hope you print and keep it for Andrew as it reflects the love between you and Steven as well as the love that Andrew was born from. It will help him to know his Daddy and the man that he was. I am glad you continue to tell your story, even through the terribly sad ending. You have been a strong young lady, but there will be times of overwhelming sadness to come as you find the time to reflect and absorb how your life has been impacted.
Many of us share your heartache and pain, and many of us love you more than you can ever know. Call me if you need me and bring that young man to visit! Love you!! Aunt Dare
My fiance and him worked together for a little while. When he heard the news he couldn't believe it either. I have read your stories, and saw your pics, but I knew nothing I had to say would make you feel better. Since My fiance and I have been together, that has been my nightmare. If it ever came true, I would lose it. I am so sorry for your loss. I couldn't imagine the pain you are going through. You and your little one are in my thoughts and prayers
ReplyDeletePrayers are with you and that is so true, don't ever leave or let your loved one leave without saying, I love you! So very sorry for your loss!
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