Snow Daze

Hello All! I'm back at it after taking a few days off. I'm struggling to find balance in my life. Part of the problem is a lack of schedule, but with a newborn, trying to create a schedule is a losing battle. None-the-less, I am trying to balance out time spent between my family, Steven's family, and our friends... as well as the time I spend alone with my precious angel. Some days I feel completely lost, like I can't figure out what I am suppose to be doing. I joked with my girlfriends yesterday, that I think I am losing my mind. I feel like it's time for me to establish a plan for the future, but where do I go from here? I was working as a Realtor prior to the accident and loved it, but now it seems like that is a part of my "old life" and I can't go back. I don't want to go back. Remembering my old schedule is too difficult.
It's snowing this evening and that brings back so many memories. I keep thinking about the blizzard we had in October. Steven had spent every bit of 4 hours trying to dig us out of the driveway, before finally giving up and calling out of work. We were literally snowed in. We spent several days with no power, no internet, dead cell phones, and minimal food, but somehow we were content. Steven loved monopoly - mainly because no one could beat him. With nothing better to do, we must have played 10 times and I lost every single time, but sitting by the fireplace and goofing off with him will forever remain one of my most recent and happiest memories. So often we would lay on the couch and watch a movie together or go out to dinner, but rarely did we ever sit in silence and talk about the future. Those are the moments worth treasuring.

One story that everyone seems to love, is the story of Frosty:
I was getting ready for work one morning - 8 months pregnant and as big as a house. Steven had just gotten home from work and was taking a shower. I was closing on two different houses that day and needed to look nice, but trying to find clothes that fit was becoming a struggle. I put on a pair of dress pants and a WHITE sweater. When Steven got out of the shower, I spun around and asked him how I looked. His response: "You are one ball away from looking like Frosty!"

I have to say that I got the last laugh... during the funeral, I placed his monopoly piece in his hand. It's my way of antagonizing him for eternity, because the last time we played, I WON! He was a real wise-ass, but I will forever be the monopoly champ!

"When it snows you have two choices; shovel or make snow angels."    - Author Unknown